Who am I?

Recently I have been learning about who I am. Who I am as a young woman in Christ, who I am lost among others on a college campus, and who I am in my family.
Over the years I have lost who I am. I have become what others want me to be. Others being my parents, my friends even my work. Why? Because I want people to like me. I know, I'm crazy.
I am slowly coming back to a realization of exactly who I am and what I want in life. I am 22 almost 23 and single. I want to meet that special guy, but it hasn't happened yet. I want to start planning for a future, I don't want to dream any more. But I can honestly tell you what I want in a man.
He needs to love God more than anything. For a while I didn't think this was important. But I know now just how much I need that in a man. I want a man who will be respectful towards me. If he doesn't know how to respect a woman, than gues what, he is not worth my precious time.
I need a guy who is proud of me. Who will tell people about me and be proud that I am his.
Looks do not matter to me. As long as he has nice eyes and a nice smile that's all I need. Eyes that can search deep into my soul and know when something is bothering me and that look at me with amazin love, and a smile that lights up the room and that when he smiles at me I can't help but smile back at him because his smile is for me.

I need to be who I am. I have my own hopes and dreams and my own beliefs. I can let others influence me in a way that make me think and possibly change for the better, but not so that I try to change me just to make them happy.

I am also on a treck to lose weight. I am having a hard time with it. It's something I really want to do, but seem to struggle with it. I need to just grow up and do it. I wanted to do the surgery, and was going to, but the insurance company no longer pays for it. But that's not always the way to go. Am I okay with being the way I am? Of course, I have come to be happy with how I look no matter what others say.