Christmas

Today is Thursday. It has been a little while since I wrote. Needless to say I have been busy. Finals are done, I am home relaxing. Or at least I will be. I have been working on a sermon that I preached today. This morning I gave a sermon to the senior high of New Covenant Academy. I spoke on the "FEAR NOTS" of Christmas. All in all I think I did a fairly good job. I didn't break out in hives!! Which was a big accomplishment for me. Every time I speak to a large crowd (or even my class) I get so nervous that I break out. The day started out with worship. I had my friend Mara lead us today. She did amazing. Preschool gave the word. They recited Luke 2 for us. All I can say is they did an amazing job. It never ceases to amaze me every Christmas how well they do. Thanks to my friend Carrie who gave me a word of advice last night. She said that God never gives someone a word unless we can apply it to ourselves first. Wow is that ever true. I got up in front of the pulpit and started getting really nervous. I spoke the words to the kids that Carrie had told me and I was able to proceed. God is good. I didn't break out and I feel that I did well. God is good. I not only got something out of it but I pray that someone else did. Blessings on your day!

Finals

Well we are down to the end. Finals are upon us and I am happy because I only have two. Today is Tuesday and I am down one. I took one this morning and got an A on it. That makes me so happy.
I can't say I'm not ready for this Christmas break. I need to get away from this place now more than I feel I have ever needed to. It hasn't been easy for me. I want some parts of my old life back. But I know I am better of this way. I have given up so much to become who I am. For the most part I am happy with who I have become. But yet some days I do feel so lost. Like things can fall away so quickly.I have lost someone i thought was a good friend. A part of me honestly misses her. I have great guy friends. Please don't get me wrong about that. I love them to death.But sometimes I just miss that female companionship. I can talk girl talk with the guys, but sometimes it can get awkward on my part. Not because they don't mind, but because it's so personal.
This break is going to be one of relaxation but doing some more changes. I am going to let God be God and let him use me in any way He wants. I am going to be working with the youth group, I am going to be preaching in just a little over a week to a Christian high school.

Be Still and KNOW HE is GOD

This was someone else's blog today. And it honestly made me think. Lately I've been running around. Going from one activity to another. But I haven't taken enough time to sit down and just listen. In just a couple weeks I will be preaching at a Christian high school. Not very many kids, but it's still intimidating. We hear about God talking to us in the weirdest places, well it happened to me. Yesterday I was in the shower thinking over my sermon. I have had many ideas in my head the last months. They finally all came together and I am so nervous but feel really good about it. But it made me think. I know God chooses to talk when He wants to talk, but seriously, this is one of the few times where I am actually relaxed and He took the time to tell me that it was time to listen. This holiday I will be slowing down. I am going to relax and listen to God. I am going to be away from school and the people here I care about, and that will be hard, but I will be relaxed. I am trusting God to speak and continue to speak to me over the years to come.