Tired

I am so tired it's not even funny. It's been many hours since I had any type of real sleep. I am so sick of all this crap! Sometimes it's hard for me to understand what all is going on. I just want to turn my back on everything and go to sleep!!!!! I posted this with someone watching over my back. Now they are gone and I can post my feelings. I really am hurt today. I told myself I wouldn't let myself get hurt, but it happened and it's too late to change it. He knows something is wrong with me but I can't bring myself to tell him. I have sacrificed time to help him the last couple days. I am now just lying down for the first time since 2 yesterday afternoon for a short 1.5 hour nap. Other than that, I have been up since 715 am Sunday morning. I am so tired, I am cranky, and I just want to quit everything!