"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints in our hearts and we are never, ever the same."
This quote is one I found my senior year of high school when writing my speech. And I have used it many times since than.
God places people into our lives for reasons. Those people may be your friends forever, but they only be there a semester or a week. It's kind of ironic, that the guy who helped cause the breakup of my friendship last semester with one of my few female friends, is now someone I'm not speaking to. Immaturity has just blossomed. I made a request, which to me didn't seem that big of a deal, but it was to him. With that request, things just kept going and going. And I had to walk away from it. And honestly, I don't miss it all that much. I can be around him, and be fine, but as long as I don't have to hold a true one on one conversation with him, everything is fine.
School is going good. Things have been busy. I have to admit, I have been really lonely. Just a bit homesick.
But I thank God for my suitemate. She has been absolutely amazing. I love her!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Time
I have realized that I haven't kept this up as much as I had wanted. But things sure have been interesting. Christmas break was good. As I mentioned in previous posts, the day I preached, I was very proud of myself. Now I just have to remember that I can do it, and continue to do it especially when I am standing up in front of a classroom giving a presentation.
Spending the time at home was a blessing. I hadn't realized just how lonely I was for my family. For the longest time we had been praying for renewal in my family. Things had been hard where my brother was concerned for the longest time. Christmas brought him home for almost 2 weeks. Now, mind you, those 2 weeks were way too long with a brother who would pour a glass of milk and leave it sitting for days. We actually had decent conversations and had a little fun together. Money was never brought up, but at this point, as long as he is decent to me, I won't say anything about it. I even gave him a Bible for Christmas. Let's pray it gets some use.
Over break, some issues came up that we thought I wouldn't be able to return to college. So through prayer and job hunting (unsuccessful around Christmastime), I decided to do some searching. 3 days before students were to be back at campus, I found out my financial aid came through and I was able to return. So things got crazy. Now I am here, started work Monday, and am sitting at work right now. A part of me was ready to stay home with my family, but a big part of me wants to finish.
So coming back to school, I told very few people I was coming back. So upon arriving on campus I surprised a good number of my friends, all who I think were happy to see me. Today I was able to see the last person (he arrived back at school late due to family vacation). I was so happy to see him.
I think God is going to teach me a lot this semester. All I want to do is avoid drama. That is the last thing i need in my life right now. And unfortunately it has already started. 2 of my best guy friends have been acting strange. I can't explain it but it's there. Even as close as I am with those two, one still had to think something was going on with me and the other. Why is it I can't be friends with a guy unless I am dating him? All my life I have been friends with the guys. I haven't had many girl friends. Which has made some things hard. But I still love my guys. But once, just once, I want to be friends with a guy and not have people think we are dating. I don't want to date right now. I want to finish my last 2 semesters and get out of school. Guys are not important right now. But friensd are. If i have to drop my friends completely and focus on God and school, I will. I don't want to, but if that is what God is asking me to do, I'll do it.
My semester seems like it will be ok. I have a lot of large projects due, but fortunately they are not all due on the same day or even same week as the other large projects. I have already started on some homework and want to get ahead for a while.
Blessings
Spending the time at home was a blessing. I hadn't realized just how lonely I was for my family. For the longest time we had been praying for renewal in my family. Things had been hard where my brother was concerned for the longest time. Christmas brought him home for almost 2 weeks. Now, mind you, those 2 weeks were way too long with a brother who would pour a glass of milk and leave it sitting for days. We actually had decent conversations and had a little fun together. Money was never brought up, but at this point, as long as he is decent to me, I won't say anything about it. I even gave him a Bible for Christmas. Let's pray it gets some use.
Over break, some issues came up that we thought I wouldn't be able to return to college. So through prayer and job hunting (unsuccessful around Christmastime), I decided to do some searching. 3 days before students were to be back at campus, I found out my financial aid came through and I was able to return. So things got crazy. Now I am here, started work Monday, and am sitting at work right now. A part of me was ready to stay home with my family, but a big part of me wants to finish.
So coming back to school, I told very few people I was coming back. So upon arriving on campus I surprised a good number of my friends, all who I think were happy to see me. Today I was able to see the last person (he arrived back at school late due to family vacation). I was so happy to see him.
I think God is going to teach me a lot this semester. All I want to do is avoid drama. That is the last thing i need in my life right now. And unfortunately it has already started. 2 of my best guy friends have been acting strange. I can't explain it but it's there. Even as close as I am with those two, one still had to think something was going on with me and the other. Why is it I can't be friends with a guy unless I am dating him? All my life I have been friends with the guys. I haven't had many girl friends. Which has made some things hard. But I still love my guys. But once, just once, I want to be friends with a guy and not have people think we are dating. I don't want to date right now. I want to finish my last 2 semesters and get out of school. Guys are not important right now. But friensd are. If i have to drop my friends completely and focus on God and school, I will. I don't want to, but if that is what God is asking me to do, I'll do it.
My semester seems like it will be ok. I have a lot of large projects due, but fortunately they are not all due on the same day or even same week as the other large projects. I have already started on some homework and want to get ahead for a while.
Blessings
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