Spring

It has been over a month since I last posted. I haven't kept up with this as much as I had wanted. Life has been a bit topsy-turvey lately. I just don't know what is going on right now. On a good note, I have one semester left and I graduate! I am so excited. Only a few classes to finish and I am out of here.
Other than that, things seem at a low point for me right now. I have been dealing with a bit of depression. I don't want to be around a lot of people, I want to just be left alone, yet at the same time, in less than 2 weeks from today, our school holds their annual Spring Banquet. I have a dress, but I don't have a ticket, or a date. Do I want to go? Of course! It's my senior year. I want to go. But, because of not wanting to go alone, I am going to be spending another Friday night at home. My friends are all talking about it, trying on their dresses every day, fixing their hair this way and that way to find the perfect hair-do for that night. Me? My dress is sitting in my closet, for a possible re-sell. I didn't pay much for it. But it's still a pretty dress.
My heart has been going all over the place as well. I was talking to a friend this weekend, about where I saw myself 5 years ago. It wasn't where I am now. I imagined myself married, if not, in a serious relationship contemplating marriage. I was close. But I look at it now, I wasn't ready, am not ready at this moment to get married. I would love to be in a relationship though. I'm lonely. I am very lonely. But at this point, I am just waiting to see what God has for me. Am I ready for what He has? YES!! But, in all honestly, I am tired of being single. I'll be 23 in a little over a month. I'll be graduating college in 9 months. It seems almost unreal.
Okay that is everything. I'll stop talking now!