Finals

Well we are down to the end. Finals are upon us and I am happy because I only have two. Today is Tuesday and I am down one. I took one this morning and got an A on it. That makes me so happy.
I can't say I'm not ready for this Christmas break. I need to get away from this place now more than I feel I have ever needed to. It hasn't been easy for me. I want some parts of my old life back. But I know I am better of this way. I have given up so much to become who I am. For the most part I am happy with who I have become. But yet some days I do feel so lost. Like things can fall away so quickly.I have lost someone i thought was a good friend. A part of me honestly misses her. I have great guy friends. Please don't get me wrong about that. I love them to death.But sometimes I just miss that female companionship. I can talk girl talk with the guys, but sometimes it can get awkward on my part. Not because they don't mind, but because it's so personal.
This break is going to be one of relaxation but doing some more changes. I am going to let God be God and let him use me in any way He wants. I am going to be working with the youth group, I am going to be preaching in just a little over a week to a Christian high school.